It is an anxious time at First Lutheran Church. We are preparing to say goodbye to my colleague, who has served so faithfully and so well in this place for twenty-one years. This is how it is to be a pastor–you love the people given to your care, but you know that eventually, God will call you to love the people somewhere else. We trust that this is good for all God’s people–the ones who are saying goodbye to a beloved pastor and the ones who are preparing to welcome a new one. But, still: a time of anxiety, of wondering and worrying and change.
It is an anxious time outside the church, too. I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but this 2016 election season has brought all kinds of ugly out in the open. It’s hard to keep listening to the news.
Then there are all the private anxieties we struggle with every day. Are we doing enough? Are we doing too much? Are we raising our kids well? Why don’t we have kids yet? Will we be able to pay all the bills this month? Where will we find time for ourselves? What will we do with all this time and nothing meaningful to fill it with? How much longer can we hold it all together? How long can we let the housework go?
I don’t have all the answers. I don’t know all the questions. Here’s what I’ve got today: a prayer from Ted Loder’s Guerillas of Grace. It popped up in my Facebook memories yesterday and it is just the deep breath and just the kick in the pants I needed. May it be the same for you:
calm me into a quietness
and molds my longings
into a more holy
What calms you into a quietness?